Malcolm's pilgrimage to Mecca post #5

After reading like 5 chapters about Malcolm's anti-white sentiment and a full 30-page chapter about his devastating downfall from the Nation of Islam, i cant explain with words how relived i felt reading about his pilgrimage to Mecca. Disregarding the minor setbacks he faced, Malcolm's experience in the Middle East was so pleasant! Up until now, all he had been thinking about were extremely stressful things. Now, when his eyes were opened to the truth, and he felt relieved, i also felt relieved! For the first time in his life he was treated with respect, hospitality, kindness, and love by people of all different colors. " All ate as One, and slept as One. Everything about the pilgrimage atmosphere accented the One-ness of Man under One God (Haley 337). This shows that Malcolm is finally understanding what it means to be a Muslim. The following quote also shows this " Love, humility, and true brotherhood was almost a physical feeling wherever I turned" (Haley 332). Throughout the entire book, i couldn't help but think that Elijah Muhammad's teachings weren't true Islam. it was all standing up for black people and blaming white people for their misfortune. In the Middle East, Islam is totally different, and Malcolm discovers this, changing his entire life. Malcolm's life prior to Mecca was technically centered around combating racism. If you break his motives down you discover that the core reason was to achieve personal happiness. So basically, as a child Malcolm was a victim of racism, then moved on to hustling and etc. to combat it and gain some control over his life, then in prison he converted to Islam, and used that to combat racism, then, finally, on his pilgrimage to Mecca, i believe that that was the climax in his life where he achieved so much happiness, that even i was happy! In a place were racism didn't exist, he was at peace. In a place where he didn't think about racism he was happy. 

Personally i feel like i can relate to Malcolm's pursuit, because i think i've been doing the same in my life. Generally, my personality is more on the shy side. When i was young, i was so extremely shy that in kindergarden i would never talk to a teacher. If i had to use the restroom, i would literally whisper to a close friend if they could go ask the teacher if I could go the bathroom. Throughout the years, i've pretty much conquered that extreme shyness, but now being a teenager, that shyness has become anxiety. My mom has become quite an expert in the field of natural healing, holistic nursing and in reiki (healing by emitting energy through your body). Her views on life have introduced me to a whole new world where i can  be in control. Where i'm going with this is that over and over again, i thought i found the perfect way of thinking, but it turned out not to be. But the more it happens, the following time i have learned what was lacking in the previous times, and applied that to the new view.  That was what Malcolm was going through. He thought being a hustler was an effective way of life, but he went to prison. He devoted himself to the Nation of Islam, but it wasn't perfect. The He discovered the new view of Islam in Mecca, finding himself. This website explains a couple od aspects of finding yourself  http://www.wikihow.com/Find-Yourself. When i went through the content on this website, i noticed most of the bullet points were evident in Malcom's life.